The Journey Continues..

So I have been doing pretty well lately. There is some pretty crappy stuff happening to us right now, so I wanted to feel better. I have literally been sick now with one thing or another with no breaks in between for about two and a half months. I hate it! For about a week now I have slowly realized that I probably am not going to get better unless I get myself healthier. I have been going to subway and ordering the turkey breast and ham six inch on wheat with no cheese and add lettuce onion and fat free honey mustard for lunch. I have been having something like a banana or a special k bar for breakfast. Dinner has never been that big for me so I have been just eating a small portion of whatever I make. I am starting to feel better. I have been going for a walk with my baby every night, which is great cause I am getting some exercise and she loves to go for stroller rides. I think it's all the excitement going on main street. Plus we get to spend some good time together. I have decided that I need to buy some vitamins and start taking them everyday. I just need to figure out what it I should buy. I know the are certain vitamins for certain things. Since I smoke I know I should take more of something but I am not sure what that is. Need to do some research I guess. I am hoping that somewhere on this journey I will also quit smoking but one thing at a time. I really, really want to buy a wii and a wii fit and be able to do some working out with that but I am working on saving up for that so it will be in time I guess. so the journey continue...


Some more news T my baby is getting so big. Auntie R brought over a potty chair so we really have been trying hard to work on that. She is at the age now where she wants to try and do everything herself. Shoe, clothes you name it. It is pretty fun. She is such a little comedian she is always cracking herself and everyone else up. N is getting ready to take gun safety class, says he wants to hunt. Never been one for that but how can I stop someone else from doing it. Hopefully is will be something that he truely enjoys. M is the normal super drama teenage queen. It is such a daily battle and however my parents did it through five girls I will never know. She can bring me to such a point of insanity. I truely have to walk away and really think about what I want to say. Can't get her to do much other than sitting on her phone or on the computer. T jr. is doing super great. He just turned 18 on the 9th of March. We are working on getting him a state ID so we can take him to TI for the night.I think it would really enjoy the bingo with a computer and some slot machines. We thought we would get a room and take him for the night. Do some gambling, have some dinner and do some swimming. I think he will really enjoy that. T Sr. is getting a little worried about his job. It is REALLY slow there right now and he is thinking it is not going to be long before they start eliminating some people. That would be very bad for us and I am keeping my fingers crossed. We would really like to move out of state but it would be diffcult to do with H. I would really only get to see her on school breaks and summer then. It would have to be something I would have to talk to her about. She is 9 now and comes a lot less now cause she has friends and developing her own life. It might be something that would aleast garuntee me that I would see her, since I know she would come. It would be like a vacation for her. Well see what happens. Getting a little ahead of myself. Now H is doing really good. She is not into much for sports but is doing good in school. It is hard to believe she is 9. I can't believe how fast time really does go.

A day not to remember...

I sit at my desk doing my work, thinking about the meeting I am going to have in a few hours. The employee reviews. I think I know they will use the economy because everyone is as their excuse, but my property runs so good and makes good money. My receivable;es are the lowest of any property. It is a very well ran property with money. They are to sure see that and give me a little to work with for raises, right? WRONG!!!! 2:00PM arrives and my boss walks into my office. He looks over the reviews I did on all my employees and then gave me my review. Looks pretty good. The ending overall evaluations says: "Over the last nine months (which is as long as my boss has been my boss) Nicole has been a very good Paramark employee and I think as we continue to work together she will become even better." I thought well this is a pretty good review. So here comes the talk about money. He tells me that he went to the owners of the company and these are the options they came back with. Option #1 you keep all your employees and no one gets a raise and you have to decrease hours or Option #2 you have to eliminate a position, make others employees job responsibilities to increase and everyone can have a 3% raise. A F***in 3% raise on a property with money. I was pissed. I said are you kidding. My boss says no these were the options I was given. I said who have you these options. He says who do you think? I say your Dad and he says yes and my uncle. His dad and uncle who are CEOS of the company I work for plus have a partial ownership in the complex. Damn them how can they put me in this position. So, I have talked with my staff and I have talked with my husband and I have thought and thought about what to do. I really need a raise, but I do not want to fire my cleaner and have my maintenance staff do it. He is a wonderful person who is the Only person here I can count one 100%. He keeps getting shit on over and over again here. I can't stand it, but then that leave only one other position I can eliminate and by doing that I have to fire my best friend. Damn them for putting me through this!!!! So after much thought and more thoughts to come. I think I will have to fire my best friend as it will be only person this will not hurt financially. Her husband is very rich and pays for everything. This is her fun money that she does very much enjoy but she has been unhappy working here and really longs to pursue something new. She used to work in the TV industry and would like to get back into something like that. but it still does not take away the fact that I have to do this to her. I really she hope she can understand that this is my job and these are the decisions I have to make for my job and has nothing to do with my personal life. I will make sound as nice as possible and let her know I have to eliminate a position and it is really the only position I can do without as I can run my office myself. Dang I have such a headache and really hope I am doing the right thing!!!

A journey

So I have been thinking what can I blog about? I don't want it to just be about eating breakfast and making dinner, which seems to be how boring my life has come to be. I had my baby a little over a year ago and since I have had her the one thing I have wanted to do is lose the weight again!! I have decided that it is time to start, it is time for me to find myself again.. Before I always procrastinated because I enjoyed having a couple drinks every night and I thought how am I going to ever lose weight and still have a couple drinks but I have now overcome that barrier because I now know I don't need them drinks every night. I also procrastinated because I didn't know how I was going to afford it. It seems when you by the healthy food you are also paying for the healthy food and the junk was so much cheaper to by but I figured it out before I can figure it out again. Now NO MORE PROCRASTINATING! I did it before I can do it again. I am going to join weight watchers again. It was the number one reason I succeeded before and I now know I need them weekly meetings to keep me motivated and accountable. Really in the long run how happy I was before is how happy I should be now and what is $12 a week for a chance at happiness and to find myself again. I know when this summer comes I want to be able to run all over with my babes and not be to tired to do it. I know that the boxes and boxes of clothes in my basement closet are meant for me to wear again. I really wanted a Buddie to do this with me but all my friends are either already skinny or have no desire to lose the weight so I am on my own and that is where I hope this blog will be the buddy I need. I am going to track my journey on here, the good and the bad and hopefully it will always be the resource I need to look back upon to never have to repeat the journey again. Today is December 12, 2008 and I am going to start my first meeting on Weds. or Thurs. of next week until that time I am going to get my cupboards ready and begin the journey to healthy living.....

Mondays..

Well I did not do any of my floor this weekend and my house is a disaster so I am not looking forward to going home. I did have a nice weekend though. T is so funny she is getting so big and really trying to say some words. She said kitty this weekend. It was so cute. Watched the Ultimate Fights on the big screen with my husband and sis. Sounds like she had a nice day that day. Which is good. I like to see her having some nice days as she keeps making it through a hard time. I am excited for Thanksgiving it is always a chance we all get to see each other. Does not seem to happen to often and my daughter H will be turning 9 next week. Can't believe she is getting so old already. My husband and I were talking this weekend and our oldest will be 18 in March. WOW! Time just goes by so quickly.

Trying this out..

Ok, so I have been following some blogs and I think that this could be a good way to get things off my chest or to just share information. Well my husband and I went to Home Depot last weekend to look for a deep fryer, he has chicken wings at home and he wanted to cook them. Of course home depot don't have deep fryers but they do have flooring. We are waling by the flooring and see these great sales so we start checking them out and find this one we really like and wouldn't cost a lot to do our huge living room. Which has ugly old used carpet in it. We decide not to impulse but and we would go home measure are living room, which is 28feet by 22 feet. Wow, I never thought it was really that big. So back to Home depot we go and figured we can do our whole living room for about $300. Bought the flooring and stopped at wal-mart and got a deep fryer. This was Saturday and we spent the rest of the day and night taking everything out og the room and pulling up the carpet, swweping and mopping the floor. Finally we started laying the floor. Well it is now a week later and still only half the room is done. I would have never thought it was going to take us this long. I so can't wait to be done. I know what I will be doing all weekend.

On another note last monday I was working at the bar and one of the customers went outside to go to the bank and seen this cute littl eblack kitty sitting by the door. Cold and hungry and crying. Well an hour goes by and the same cute little kitty is still sitting by the door, so I call my kids and tell them to come down and get this kitty and bring it home. Well we have looked at all the lost ads and no one has lost this kitty. So we have a new member to our home. T loves it but the kitty is not so keen on her. Well see what happens.

My first blog

Ok, guess I will give this a try. Well it is Friday afternoon and I am getting ready to head home to see my baby for a few minutes before I rush off to another job. It is sure going to be a long weekend. I have to work in Miesville tonight until 11 P.M and then I am back there tommarrow until 11 P.M. again and then again on Sunday from 11 AM until 8 PM. I sure am going to miss my family this weekend. My baby never does very good when I have to be gone so long, she misses her mom so much. Sure can't wait until I can finally quit on of these jobs. Hopefully very soon. Well I can't believe how fast my baby grows. It just seems like a week ago she was just born and sleeping all day now it is already 7 months later and my other little girl is already 8 years old. Where does the time go. Way to fast!